“When i look back on my life, it’s not that I don’t want to see things exactly as they happened, it’s just that I prefer to remember them in an artistic way. And truthfully the lie of it all is much more honest, because, I invented it.
Clinical psychology tell us arguably that trauma is the ultimate killer. Memories are not recycled like atoms and particles in quantum physics. They can be lost forever. It’s sort of like my past is an unfinished painting, and as the artist of that painting, i must fill in all the ugly holes, and make it beautiful again. It’s not that i’ve been dishonest, it’s just that I loathe reality”
-Lady Gaga
I forgot to mention that I’m seeing the Yeah Yeah Yeahs in PARIS May 8th.
Is this even real?
My “American Dream” documentary I made. Featuring two of my closest friends, Xieran and Christina (Fanyao). They’re both very dear to my heart and I hope to one day be able to speak their beautiful language.
Life has had its ups and downs lately. I feel really off, odd, and disconnected from almost everything but on the same token connected, normal, and completely “on”. It’s so strange how life can take turns for the better when you’re least expecting it. It’s also funny how much it can decline. A walking paradox, just like a kisaeng..
I’ve always had a hard time figuring out what i want, and when I do it’s always vague. I directed a short film this semester, made a short documentary, am (probably) about to make my first C, got an iPad, got accepted into the Cannes Film Festival program… So many petty things that have happened that I put value (or no value) in.
I’m incredibly grateful though for my family, friends, team, and the hard work ethic that I have despite my flaws. This is the first time I’ve logged onto Tumblr in probably about a month, but I just wanted to get some thoughts out there so that maybe one day I can form opinions and write eloquently on film, art, and science… My disjointed thoughts will come together one day and people will see past my immense sadness and loss. I know there is more to come in my life if I live long. I’m planning on living as long as I can for those that love me, if for nothing else.
Anyway. I’ll be posting my documentary shortly so anyone interested can view it. It’s nothing special, but I worked hard on translating everything and putting it together.
Au Revoir. I’ll be updating this more when I’m in London, Paris, and Cannes this summer!
Just promoting one of my best friends, Blaire Erskine. Y U SO GORGEOUS GIRL?
(Source: blaireskine, via curveappeal)
(CNN) — A 2-year-old Mississippi girl is the first child to be “functionally cured” of HIV, researchers announced Sunday.Researchers said they believe early intervention — in this case within 30 hours of birth — with three anti-viral drugs was key to the outcome. A “functional cure” is when the presence of the virus is so small, lifelong treatment is not necessary and standard clinical tests cannot detect the virus in the blood. The finding was announced at the 2013 Conference on Retroviruses and Opportunistic Infections in Atlanta. The unidentified girl was born HIV-positive to a mother who received no prenatal care and was not diagnosed as HIV-positive herself until just before delivery. “We didn’t have the opportunity to treat the mom during the pregnancy as we would like to be able do to prevent transmission to the baby,” said Dr. Hannah Gay. Gay, a pediatric HIV specialist at the University of Mississippi Medical Center, told CNN the timing of intervention in this case, before the baby was diagnosed HIV-positive, may deserve “more emphasis than the particular drugs or number of drugs used.”
“We are hoping that future studies will show that very early institution of effective therapy will result in this same outcome consistently,” she said on the eve of the conference.
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